I'm sitting on a plane a zillion feet in the air and all I can think about is your sweet face when I walked away from you this morning.
I don't want to feel sad right now. All I want to do is realize I had a tiny bit more of my journey that I needed to do without you.
I never expected to fall for you. I don't know if I told you, but I watched you the entire time in the restaurant. I wasn't paying attention to anything but you. I had a hard time focusing on the conversation with my friends. I was hoping you'd do more than look. Or that I'd find the ballsy in me to say something. Then when the moment passed I thought that's ok. But than when you came walking up to me I thought I had hit the jackpot. I was not only so grateful that you saved me and my seat debacle, but also that you just saved me. You've been a hero for me so many times.
You were a hero that day. You were my hero when I needed things camping. You were a hero when you chose to be my friend and be there for me when I felt so lost and lonely. You were a hero when you had nothing to gain and helped me with my car. You were a hero when you gave me another chance to spend time with you. You were a hero when you I wanted to hike but felt over anxious. You were a hero when you held me in your arms on the tramp in the moonlight. I've never felt more safe. You were a hero when you respected where I was and heard what I wanted. You were a hero when I started slipping into your world and you let me. You were a hero when you came home early and saved me from trying again. You were a hero when you loved me and didn't pity me in that moment. When you helped me feel like I was precious above all the stars in the sky. You were a hero when you faced your parents wrath for me. You were a hero when you let me "change" my mind and fall in love with you. You've been my hero every day since... every act of kindness, every hug, every kiss, ever meal, everything you did just so I didn't have to, ever time you let me try to return the favors if only in a fraction. You were my hero when you were brave enough to help me say goodbye to everything I've ever known to move across the world and wait for you. You were my hero for knowing that I had to go before I cried and decided to stay. . . You were my hero for letting go. You are my everything. I feel so honored by your presence and love. I'm so stinking excited to see you!
Anyway, I wanted to talk to you desperately. . . So I decided I would. I am about to start my 3rd movie this flight and my Starbursts are gone. I miss you. I think you should watch the most recent divergent movie called alligent. And then the movie gods of Egypt and now I'm watching my big fat Greek wedding 2. I wish you could be on this flight with me. Soon. . . .
Well know I've been thinking about you. You're my world. Mwah!
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